A Master Piece in Progress

I have these days every now and again, those kind of days where you’re not unhappy, your not overly happy, your just kind of here. These days present a lot of internal dialogue with myself. Books, emails, certain sayings, words of inspiration, and random conversations tend to have a large impact on me during these times.

Today I’m not in the mood for negativity and in my office, there is a person or two that this is all they emanate. I find this negativity and down right cruelty to be like a bad seed or a festering wound. It can take over someone.

I have tuned my mind into Dave Mathews Band today. Wonderful. Beautiful musicianship, wonderful lyrics, peace, harmony, and comfort. Love it.

I am watching myself change. When I close my eyes I see a new me. Strange how time and age and experience can awaken you, change you, move you into a new point of view. I see others around me and wonder what would make you so bitter that you can’t see what you’ve become. Keep your eyes forward, keep your mind open, keep your site on God, not on the past, you can’t change the past.

Strange, when you don’t think you can change anymore, when you think you have hit the person you really are, a new bloom of yourself opens. A new stem on the plant, a new leaf on the tree, it’s breath taking really. I’m not a seed anymore, I’m a tree, strongly rooted, with so many details to explore and each day, each moment, provides a new opportunity for something to grow. I see others around me, their behavior and it’s such a learning lesson for me, I know exactly how I don’t want to be. I pick up the precious moments and tid bits from those around me whom I admire. I grow from this, and I guess I grow even from those who are consumed by something dark.

What about in the eyes of the Maker. How do I look to Him? Hopefully as a work in progress. A piece of art that is not yet finished, but well on its way to being a master piece.

Of course, I’m just winging it here, I could be tired, and not quite awake, maybe I need to grab more coffee!