SImpler Life

I got to thinking if every second of my life counts, I sure do waste a lot of seconds…

I circle back around and around to the fact that life is so much more than sitting in a cube doing tasks that mean very little, if nothing in the real world.
I was sitting outside last night, there was a bit of a chill in the air, that fall smell around, and I looked up; the stars were out, covering the night sky, and I longed for the ability to have a simpler life. A life that meant so much more than it does right now. All I am now is a number in a sea of numbers.

How do you make that happen? A simpler life? Work that actually accomplishes something, a life where you can trust your kids are safe outside, where you don’t need to buy the unnecessary, or be tracked on a video camera at every stoplight.. A simpler life that reflects a good life, a quality life. I want to live in a town where traffic is a summer parade. I want to live a life where TV is not a member of the family. I want to live a life that out my window is nature, not the light rail.

We went to South Dakota this summer for a quick weekend trip to Mount Rushmore, and I keep thinking how I could live there. It was so much more laid back and nice. It keeps permeating my mind, filling me with wonder, curiosity, and the possibilities. I close my eyes and I can see it, I can see what that life looks like. The smell of it fills my nostrils, making my head spin at the possibility of it all. Yet, the reality leaves a bad taste in my mouth. The economy is crap, and we’d never get out of our house for what we owe, we’re stuck, just like everyone else. I guess, its not that bad, we have a home, we have many many blessings, but back in my mind is the ache to be away from it all.

So on occasion, I entertain the thought….I look up land prices. I look at job markets in lesser populated areas, I think of what it would take to build a house on a piece of property a millions miles away from it all. So I make poor John buy lotto tickets every week in hopes that we can change our lives to what we keep talking about.

I had to choke the tears back last night, swallow the rock in my throat. Our family is so great, how great things are for us, its good, life if good. But I had to choke back the tears, because each day is precious and I don’t want it to be wasted.

I have warm wonderful friends in my life, I have dedicated and devoted family members, I have a house we have made into a home and all are welcome there. So each day I make it thru to the next, doing the best I can and hoping for the best of what the world has to offer for my kids in their futures.

When I win the lotto on Wednesday, I’ll send you our new address, it will be some fabulous ranch in Montana!